three nightmares

been having some really upsetting dreams recently..

not long ago i dreamt that someone was systematically killing friends in my house. but doing so by sabotaging certain appliances. like the washing machine and other things were killing people in the house, but only people with whom i was really close.

then last night i dreamt that a friend of mine got married to an absolute shithead that she actually knows in real life. and with whom i often fear she is infatuated. and she and i grew apart because i absolutely could not accept their love, and he came down here unexpectedly for a surprise visit (because he doesn't live here) and i was distraught.

tonight was the first night that i actually woke up from the dream it was so bad.

there was a serial killer in the house. people were asleep in my bedroom. i was at the computer. for some reason someone was coming to our house who was out for blood. marina and maybe lauren, maybe bekah, were the only ones in the house not in my room. and i feel like they knew what was going on and retreated to marina's room but just decided to get high (maybe?) and keep having a good time, laughing. while they were still downstairs, i shoved my door shut in order to lock it (which was difficult in the dream) and had soothing music playing and tried my best to lie down in my bed with everyone else and lie completely still. even though i'd shoved my door closed i could somehow see thru a crack and could also hear him coming up the stairs. when he got to the door though i was staring at him trying so hard to not move at all so he wouldn't think anyone was in here. i realized while staring at him that it was phil elverum. which probably sounds funny when typed out right here, but it made things a lot more upsetting in the dream itself. a paragon of wisdom, of peace, of beauty was calmly standing at my doorstep standing still but for his heavy breathing and staring into my room directly at me as i tried not to move a muscle, to close my eyes.

when i woke up it didn't even feel like waking up. it just felt like opening my eyes after waiting for him to leave. i could only tell that i was, indeed, awake because when i opened my eyes they weren't fixed on my door.


it's really lame because i've been going to bed in a bad mood recently. but by the morning i usually feel better. so waking up, still feeling the effects of a nightmare kind of just perpetuates that bad mood.

artist of the fucking year

DickyDawkins

Richard Dawkins came yesterday to give a lecture at USC. I didn't get a chance to ask a question, but after thinking some, this is what I'd've like to've asked him:

I think you and I would both agree that evangelical fundamental religious faith is harmful to society in breeding intolerance and even hostility towards those who don't follow those same fundamental religious laws. Can you please tell me how your fundamental evangelical atheism is any less harmful to society in breeding intolerance and hostility towards those with any religious or spiritual faith?

House of Perennial Cookin'z

playlist for a show that Kay, Olivia, and I did
covering for Jordan Redmond's House of Freedoms, a specialty show whose purpose is basically to be as avant garde as possible
we did our best

House of Perennial Cookin'z - 16SEP09

1. AIDS Wolf - A Sacrificial Drone
2. Avey Tare & Krìa Brekken - Foetus No-man
3. Kurse Go Back - Disastrous Riot Invoking Cartoon Strips
4. Kan Mikami - It's Good That I Dream
5. Raccoo-oo-oon - Diamonds in the Dunes
6. Neil Campbell - Bbreeeze
7. The Goslings - Statuette
8. Skullflower - Pipe Dream
9. Free Kitten - Surf's Up (by request, in lieu of Sonic Youth)
10. High Places - Banana Slugs
11. Xiu Xiu - Sad Redux-O-Grapher
12. II Ortus 2012 - Don't Blame Me, I Voted for Die Bold
13. Inca Ore - Baby Tiger I Went Far Away
14. Excepter - If I Were You (Live)
15. Yellow Swans - Oases
16. Ajilvsga - Mezolithic
17. Black Forest/Black Sea - Tangent Universe
18. Eric Copeland - Green Burrito
19. Clipd Beaks - Woo Melodies
20. Lotus Plaza - Sunday Night
21. Giraffe Running - Feline in Full Effect
22. Religious Knives - Luck
23. Lightning Bolt - Dracula Mountain
24. Shipping News - Paper Lanterns

by the by

any readers who didn't already know:

I've been elected to the position of WUSC's official Fall/Spring '09/'10 MUSIC DIRECTOR!!

along with John

we'll be sharing the duties.

the job comes with a bit of a history of one person doing a whole lot more than the other, but i am hoping that will NOT be the case with he and i. to celebrate the win, i grabbed 14 CD's from the music office yesterday and am in the process of reviewing them right now.

the best of bdp (this semester (so far))

i think after two fund raiser shows this year dedicated to folk music, each garnering no donations, i have concluded that people in columbia don't like hearing folk on the radio

well don't worry, there's plenty of remixed elctrnk indie pop and poptastic punk specialty shows dedicated to free format to go around these days

i'd already decided this before today, but i don't believe i'm doing another specialty show next semester

much more likely will be the return of what's cookin'

anyway~

this was my "best of" show playlist and i thought it was pretty damn bangar—
(in italics is the theme, if any, of the show in which the song was used)

1. Computerization - BDP
2. Mount Eerie with Julie Doiron & Fred Squire - You Swan Go On
3. A Wonderful - Under Cover(S)
4. Final Fantasy - Blue Imelda COLOR
5. The Sarcastic Dharma Society - Bad Bad Things (by andrew jackson jihad) DEATH
6. Mirah - Bones & Skin HUMAN ANATOMY
7. Cara del Gato - Moon Party SUN & MOON
8. El Explorador - S&M Is Fun! SEX
9. Real Live Tigers - The Preacher's Daughter SEX
10. tUnE-YaRdS - FIYA ELEMENTS
11. Shelby Sifers - From My Cumulous Clouds ELEMENTS
12. Antony & the Johnsons - Another World DEATH
13. Jordaan Mason - Housewife Part Two SEX
14. Belly Boat - Little Raccoon ANIMALS
15. The Books - Contempt SEX
16. Mi and L'au - A Word in Your Belly HUMAN ANATOMY
17. High Places - The Storm
18. Computerization - Fukuwinicu SEX
19. Jolie Holland - Springtime Can Kill You
20. Vetiver - Down From Above DIRECTION
21. Espers - Black Is The Color COLOR
22. The Angels of Light - Michael's White Hands COLOR
23. Tinyfolk - I Don't Believe You
24. Assault Squad Safety Scissors - Kids to Save the World
25. Diane Cluck - Always Here
26. Seamonster - We Didn't Need to Breathe

i also don't know that i'm goign to theme my shows from now on, or post my playlists on facebook and last.fm anymore
which means there will be a lack of linkage on here
SORRY, if anyone happens to utilize those links

also don't forget, those last two artists are coming to columbia and playing El Burrito on 27 April - monday - the last motherfuckign day of classes
you all better come out and witness it